It's Only a Number

Well I'm sitting here thinking about writing about an exercise buddy but I really just wanting to rant about the fact that I did some really hard workouts this week, and didn't lose the weight I planned on. BUT I will tell you it is all my own fault that I ate more than I worked out.  I did lose .4 pounds. A loss is still a loss. If I lose a little every week it will add up.  Most days I ate really well but over the weekend was a different story.  My husband smoked some BBQ and I bought an orange cream cake. WHY do I do this to myself?  I was thinking oh I'll just have a piece. NO I had a piece every day until the cake was gone.  I also had a candy bar because I had already had the cake.  Well I'll tell you what I am no longer going to set a weekly weight loss goal for myself.  My weight is just another number in my life.  I know I am obese but so are a whole lot of people. It doesn't make me a bad person there just really is more of me to love. Yes I would like to be thinner, but I think if I put the numbers out of my head and focus on just being healthier that is what's going to make me feel better.  In fact I was in a great mood before I weighed myself.  I have a ton of energy. My husband has been complimenting me on toner legs. I am getting more projects done. So what if I didn't lose 5 pounds this week.  If I keep working out and eating right I will get the results that I want eventually.  I just don't want to get discouraged and give up like I have so many times before.  I will still be weighing myself weekly but I'm defiantly not going to set weekly weight loss goals.  Slow and steady wins the race.

My challenge for this week is to just eat mostly fruits and veggies and very little junk, keep drinking water, and keep on working out.

....hey it's progress!

OK I'm gonna be totally honest with my blogs. Good or bad I will be honest with you. For one I try to be an honest person as a rule of life and this also forces me to be honest with myself. Anyway back to my point.  I did not meet all the challenges I set for myself : /  However, I did drink water water water and more water, but I did have a glass of Pepsi and a bottle of wheat grass passion fruit juice oh and a sip of sweet tea. I exercised 5 out of 7 days. Two of those days were amazing hour and a half walks on a mountainous up hill road.  I am shamed to say that I had a LOT of chocolate. The Big Pack Little Debbie Fudge Round kind of chocolate to be exact, and a Carmelo......and some chocolate ice cream.  So I broke up with Little Debbie this week, because if I have a box in the house I can't stop at one.  So here's the deal, I obviously can't do this on my own.  There are a lot of things that are bigger than myself and I know I have God at my side to get me through it.  OK I know in the grand scheme of things my weight should be the least of my worries.  I'm not really doing this to look good I'm doing this to feel good.  When I am eating right and exercising I feel GREAT and everything else in life seems to fall into place.

Last February I started Weight Watcher's for the third time, but that time it clicked and I lost 23 pounds. I was working out and feeling great. The past few weeks I have been searching for that again, but last night I realized I am going to have to go back to the way I was living in February. I have to pray for myself to follow the Weight Watcher's plan, exercise, and take my vitamins. It was working for me then and it will work for me now as long a I stick with it and stay humble.  I believe that there is great power in prayer.  It works for me in every aspect of my life so why not ask for strength and guidance with my health?

OK so on an exciting note I weighed in this morning and I lost 3.1 pounds this week!!!  It was the three pounds I had gained since I stopped WW but hey it's progress.  I am going in the right direction and this week it I can stay away from Little Debbie's I know I will do great. 

My challenge this week is and I know it's kind of a long shot, but I want to lose 5.6 pounds this week. That would be a 26 pound weight loss since my start last February.  I also am going to stay on plan and track what I eat.

I am so BAD at this.....but I gotta do this for my kids!

OK I walked a couple of times. Worked out a little. I ate lots of fruits and veggies. I maintained my weight,  BUT most days I sat on my couch watching YouTube.  I had a busy week, but when I was home I didn't make the time to work out.  I am just so BAD at this whole healthy living thing.  I don't know if it is just become something you are born with or you are a product of bad habits you learn from your parents.  I don't want to offend anyone in my family but the truth is on my mom's side only 1 in 4 of her and her sisters has their weight under control. 

Now that my daughter is no longer a baby she is more vocal about what she wants to eat.  I used to make sure she eat healthy and drank water. I don't think she even tasted soda until she was almost two and she has never had it regularly.  Now she is asking for candy and sweet tea a lot more.  She has always been big for her age, but lately I am worried she is going to have problems with her weight.  She loves to stay with my grandparents, but honestly that is where she gets the majority of her junk food. 

I think that we got our food addiction from my grandparents spoiling us with processed food. I can understand it though, they grew up during The Depression and did not have convenience foods to eat. So when the grocery store and fast food restaurants started opening up all over the place it was a privilege that nobody knew was actually going to be a curse.  They mostly ate what they helped grow in their backyard.  I am very grateful to have been able to learn gardening and food preserving from my grandparents.  I think if I were to stick with the diet that they at in the 1930s and '40s I would be in a lot better shape.  In fact I think the country would be in a lot better shape. Anyway,  I shouldn't just say my grandparents; it really is the way we live in America.  We produce food in a factory instead of just farming and we are a product of the trash we eat.

 I have a boy that I am trying to help gain weight and a daughter that I am trying to get to grow into her weight. (That is how the nutritionist put it, "...grow into her weight.")   How do I serve my kids the same menu and have opposite affects? I am going to sneak healthy fat into his diet and cut out all the junk food in my house, and no more fast food.  My son would rather starve than eat healthy food, but if I only serve whole foods then he doesn't have the choice he will eventually eat.  I have been having a bad week with the dieting and exercising but I gotta do this for my kids!  I can't expect them to be healthy and me eat and drink whatever tastes good. 

My challenge for this week is to only drink  water, have no chocolate, exercise on the Wii Fit daily and walk at least 16 miles.

Rain Rain Go Away.......

So I wanted to title this blog walk Walk WALK, but I'm not gonna just repeat myself for every challenge I give myself. Anyway you just really wanna know if I walked the 24 miles in a week and......(commercial break ha ha)  I need to just buy a treadmill.  I walked 8 of the 24 miles I wanted to walk and it rained the rest of the week. Aanytime I had free to walk it was raining.  I know we need the rain, but I would really liked to have gotten to walk more. If I didn't have kids to think about I probably would have just walked in the rain. OK probably not! I am so disappointed in myself though because I should have at least worked out doing something else.  So this week I will strive to do so. I have a work out DVD that I can work on. Also, this was the best part of my week, my Wii came back on! Now I can do Wii Fit. Knock on wood that it doesn't shut down again.  I am so excited about the Wii. When I noticed that the lights were back on it felt like Christmas.  We never unhooked it in the hope this would happen b/c the same thing happened to somebody we know.  Also, this is the best part I have lost a couple pounds. Now that the Wii is back on I will be doing official weigh ins on Thursday mornings so I will let all my many readers know how much I have lost every week. 

So I wanna be serious about something for a minute.  I haven't talked about diet much on this blog yet. That's because I want to do this gradually and get my workout routine going then start eating more healthy. I feel like when I am working out more I am less inclined to eat junk food so I need to get the exercise routine down first.  Anyway, I have been thinking seriously about something and I have talked myself into it. OK so I am going to go on a 10 day juice fast.  Not like just drinking fruit punch for 10 days, but juicing my own fruits and veggies kind of fast.  I am nervous but I know it wont kill me.  I plan on starting this in a couple of weeks and I want to blog about it maybe everyday for 10 days. I don't want to do this to lose 20 pounds in 10 days, but I want to detox my body of all the crap that I have put into it over the years. 

This weeks challenge is to keep drinking water, work out in some form at least 30 minutes everyday, and walk 4 miles each day that it's not raining.  Thanks for reading and if you are on the road to better health, "I beleive you CAN do it!"

Water Water WATER!!!!!

All week I have drank nothing but water! I think being well hydrated is the most important key to being healthy and losing weight. Man can not live by soda alone.  I went out to dinner with some old friends from high school and I wanted to have a margarita but nope I had water. Ok I did have milk with my cheerios but that counts a food right?  Well it was really no big deal for me to drink water until Sunday there was an RC Cola in my home. I wanted to chug it down so bad but I didn't.  I like this blogging for accountability thing. I felt like if I drank any soda or whatever else I would have to blog about it, and I didn't want to let my many followers (lol) down.  I didn't weight myself last week but I can tell that stopping the sugary drinks has helped. My face look slimmer and I don't feel as bloated.  My diet was horrible I had like lots of chocolate but I don't feel like I went on a binge or anything like that. The only exercise I got was "Spring" cleaning at the end of Summer lol.  This week I will be adding an exercise routine back into my schedule. Then I will get to my food addiction part. I feel like if I have the first two in place and this blog that I will be able to control what I put into my mouth more.  I wonder how many more times I could have typed the word WATER in this blog?

This weeks challenge is......I will walk at least 21 miles this week. Even if it kills me!  Who wants to join me?